Sometimes Money Can Destroy You Faster Than Poverty - Share
From my experience and Rob Henderson's Post
As someone who was a poor boy most of my life, I always thought as soon as I had money that my life would be good, and I would finally be happy. Nothing could have been further from the truth.
The first time I made $10,000 in one month was the moment I finally had achieved getting out of poverty. I started my spending spree by giving a homeless man my left over food from my restaurant dinner. I have a place in my heart for the homeless, having chosen to be homeless the first time in my life to escape abuse. With more bouts of homelessness to come after that.
At this time everything I owned and was responsible for was paid in full, yet it was a huge smack in the face to find myself blowing this 10 grand on vodka, porn, prescription meds, and the wrong people who were shining me on. I ended up in therapy with a truly PSYCHO therapist I later discovered I was being abused by that landed me homeless again in So Cal, then into a moldy apartment back up in Oregon. Then eventually homeless again when I had to leave the black mold infested apartment to save my life.
What I eventually came to discover is how unhappy I was, now that I was no longer in survival mode, and comfortable with all my bills paid. I was in a lot of pain from parting with the last woman I dated, and the surfacing of repressed trauma and memories recall that came out of that relationship. I was the happiest I had ever been when her and I were loving each other, and talking about making babies. I was making less money at that time, but was truly happy because it was in alignment with the vision of my future that the Creator gave me of being a lover and father.
I resonate with the following post very deeply from lived experience. Rob Henderson knows what he is talking about and speaks truth.
One can destroy and hurt oneself faster with a lot of money because it gives you the means and resources to indulge, and take pleasure in as much gluttony and sloth as you want without killing yourself. I am one of the lucky ones who did not kill myself. Some other have not been so fortunate as I have been.
And please do check out Rob Henderson’s book Troubled if you have not already. It does not disappoint, and is one of the best books and memoirs I have ever read.
God bless you Rob, and Everyone here reading!
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